there are so many things i wanna say,
but i dunno where to start from.
ok, maybe i should begin from here.
first of all,
krismine,
i wanna say sorry to you.
i was'nt able to relate what you were going through all these while.

joe yee and salina,
u might be thinking why did i ask u both that two questions out of the blue.
like ur answer joe yee,
i dont know why too.
i wish i knew,
not that im delibrately hiding something from u guys.

i just wanna wake up from my fantasy world.
all along i was thinking or rather dreaming that this world is so fantastic,
so flawless,
so perfect.
i just realise i was wrong.
or am i really wrong?
thats the reason why i ask that question.
IDONTKNOWWHATISHAPPENINGTOMYSELF,
thats why i asked,
and i wish someone could guide me through.

i just lost something that was so important to me,
and i will never want to lose it ever again.
like the lyrics in one of westlife's song,
"u cant lose what u never have".
so i wont want to have it anymore,
in order not to lose it.
and that's trust.

i want time to move back.
i want to experience the time in march to july this year again.
krismine, you're not the only one missing everything.
i miss the trueness,
i miss the laughter,
i miss the sacarstic remarks,
i miss the freedom,
i miss the trust,
i miss the warmth,
i miss the never-closing-up,
i miss the support,
i miss the encouragement,
i miss all the real happiness,
i miss everything that seem to be in the past!

wrote this in class on wednesday with salina giving comments.
but pls note,
IMNOTTHEPERSONA!

"its like a swing,
but i wont swing with you.
all i can do is to hold the swing
never to let it move, never to let the wind blow.
i'm sorry,
cos im afraid that while i swing with you,
i will fall
and when i fall,
you're still up there swinging
unaware that im below, hurt and lost.
i dont want my wound to make you swing even more
so all i can do now,
is to hold you,
and never let you fly into another world.
please forgive me,
for not holding you right from the start"
copyrighted cheri=]

what can you infer from this text? [i know i sound like miss palai]
see it as friendship, relationship, kinship or whatever ship,
its up to the reader to decide what it means,
the person who write just writes in this case.

nevermind.
once again,
i will treat everything as another challenge God is giving me.
there are so many people out there fighting for their lives,
i must too.
what am i compared to the pain those in the third world country are facing?
nothing.
yes,
im not all that optimistic,
but im also not all that pessimistic.
i wont make myself emotic,
for what?
stupid right.

ok no more tears,
no more fears,
start a day with a smile!
tomorrow would be so much fun,
going to elias park pri with sec 2 guides. [this is what i call clinging on to even the smallest glimpse of happiness]

shall stop here,
must study!
haha ok byee..

Cheri's my big name. It's French fyi. So dont make a fool of yourself with pronouncing my name. I first breathe oxygen on the last day of September. I've been moulded in SACPS and growing up in PRCS. 3/8's the room i go to everyday in sch. I love the sky, it's my darling. Dance and Guides revolve around my world. I'm a very literature person, so read between my lines. I dont always talk things on the surface. History's my favourite subject and i dont see whats's wrong with it. Just as my passion for the stage won't be killed so easily. I live my life the way it is with wonderful friends around me. The last thing i need is a knife to cut my wrist. You can hate me for all you want, cause i believe hating only harms yourself. I dont give up so easily and I never will. If you know me well, you'll know I'm not just what you see. I am happy for the life God give me.

GUIDES:)
PRCS GG.
ADORA.
AFIFAH.
AMANDA.
ANNETTE.
ATHIRAH.
ATIQAH.
BRENDA.
CHARMAINE.
CHINGYING.
CINDY.
DAWN.
DIYANA.
FLORENCE.
GERALYN.
HUITING.
JACKYI.
JIANING.
JOANNE.
JOLIN.
JONYI.
KHAIRIYANA.
KHALIESAH.
LINA.
MAHYRAH.
MALIAH.
MUNEERA.
PEILING.
PRIYA.
RUIYI.
SHAHILA.
SHERYN.
TENGPING.
VALERIE.
VANESSA.
XIUCHUAN.
YUWEN.

NDP'08.
CRYSTAL.
ERICA.
GEVANYA.
HEATHER.
JASMINE.
JINGFANG.
MELISSA.
PRICILLA.
REGINA.
SHINMUN.
VIVIAN.
YINGTIAN.
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2006DAISY.
BEVERLY.
HUIWEN.
INTAN.
JAMIE.
JANEEN.
NICOLE.
PEIXUAN.
SARAH.
SHUXIN.
STEFANIE.
SUMITA.
TRACY.
TRICIA.
YENLENG.
YINWEI.
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TWOFIVE'08.
AFIQAH.
AMANI.
ANNABELLE.
ASYRAF.
ELISYA.
JAGA.
JAMIE.
JEAN.
JONAS.
KRISMINE.
LIMENG.
NABILAH.
NINA.
NURAISHAH.
SALINA.
SYAHIRAH.
TERESA.
VENUS.
YVONNE.
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AMOS.
CLARISSA.
DANIEL.
ELVIN FC.
EVAN.
FIONA.
GUANFEI.
JAIME.
JASMINE.
JOCELYN.
JIEWEN.
JOHANNA.
JONATHAN.
KAIXIN.
MENGYONG.
MUNMUN.
NIXON.
PEARLYN.
RACHEL.
ROXANNE.
SEBRINA.
SERA.
SHANE.
SHERRI.
VANETTA.
XENA.
XIAYIN.
YANLEI.

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