life's changing a lot.
for the better or for the worse im not sure.
for now i only know,
im different from last year.
maybe not totally different,
but i can sense myself changing.
what can i do?
perhaps just try to focus on what i really want.
and what i really want?
im at a total lost.
i want to start anew,
but how long would i have to wait?
or forever it'll be like that?
all these questions just keep poping up,
and answers dont accompany them.

however i cant complain much,
cos theres someone going through much more than me.
so this is my advice,
whether u see it anot,
i wanna let you know i'll help you.
you helped me once,
you made the path which i wanted to take brighter,
and thus my decision came clearer,
for the important choice i had to make last year.

i know maybe it came to you a little too quick.
you're more confused than i am,
you dont really know what to do next.
your're filled with anger, sadness, awkwardness, frustration each time it happens.
sometimes you may ask "why did i end up like this?"
for all you know,
you're trying your very best to be yourself.
let me assure you, that there's nothing wrong with you,
if others are jealous, its their problem.
they live in misery,
but you dont have to.
thay want you to join them in their unsecure life.
dont let them win,
dont let them ruin your life,
dont let them affect your whole being.

you look at things from a totally different perspective compared to me.
but i still understand what you mean.
for me,
after some time, i'll accept my fate.
but to you, its called self-deceiving.
i took a long time to digest that,
and i understood why.
cos for me, i would improve it,
but you will change it.
there's no right or wrong in life,
so maybe i was selfish on my part,
not to consider what you mean at the begining.

it was now till i realised,
what i said all along could have confused you,
cos we see things from a different angle.
i really wanna help you get out of this,
cos perhaps you din'nt know it,
you're changing.
i want to see the original you again,
dont always look back,
dont sink deeper in.

dont keep turning back,
or shoot yourself with words like "i should'nt have came",
cos regrets will only make you suffer more,
so why not continue your life happily?
i know its easier said than done,
but you have to try in order to know.
its the courage that you need,
the courage to tell yourself to move on.
its not easy, and it is'nt going to be easy.

how do i describe all these?
cos i told you that i was like this last year.
the new people,
caused me to really think im at the edge of this world.
but i struggled through,
and now when i think back,
i kinda thank those who made me struggle.
cos its through all these obstacles,
then i became a much stronger person.
see these really depressing problems as a challenge God give you in your life.
be a little optimistic,
and you'll see a brighter world.

tell yourself you can do it,
you can struggle through,
however i know its the courage thing again.
you gave me the courage once,
and now its my turn to give it to you.
always remember who you really are,
and never let anyone change it.

turn yourself in-side-out and ask,
do you really have that grudge?
no, you dont,
from what i can see.
cos u still care,
and i know it, and maybe you dont.
time will heal,
believe in yourself,
believe the true you.
somehow our minds cross,
and i can totally understand how you feel now.
if you feel lonely,
im here.

and im sorry,
the recent additional mess,
was somehow caused by me.
sorry, truely i am.
you've been juggling lots of stuff at one time already,
and my one-time carelessness added another burden to you.
i know you dont blame me,
but i feel gulilty.
so i really hope i'll help you through,
help you get out of it fast.

dont think so much,
cos the more you think,
the more you'll sink in.
start each day positively,
instead of saying its gonna be awful.

im writing this,
with what i really feel,
im not being pretentious,
for this i can totally assure you.
and i know you know it.

Cheri's my big name. It's French fyi. So dont make a fool of yourself with pronouncing my name. I first breathe oxygen on the last day of September. I've been moulded in SACPS and growing up in PRCS. 3/8's the room i go to everyday in sch. I love the sky, it's my darling. Dance and Guides revolve around my world. I'm a very literature person, so read between my lines. I dont always talk things on the surface. History's my favourite subject and i dont see whats's wrong with it. Just as my passion for the stage won't be killed so easily. I live my life the way it is with wonderful friends around me. The last thing i need is a knife to cut my wrist. You can hate me for all you want, cause i believe hating only harms yourself. I dont give up so easily and I never will. If you know me well, you'll know I'm not just what you see. I am happy for the life God give me.

GUIDES:)
PRCS GG.
ADORA.
AFIFAH.
AMANDA.
ANNETTE.
ATHIRAH.
ATIQAH.
BRENDA.
CHARMAINE.
CHINGYING.
CINDY.
DAWN.
DIYANA.
FLORENCE.
GERALYN.
HUITING.
JACKYI.
JIANING.
JOANNE.
JOLIN.
JONYI.
KHAIRIYANA.
KHALIESAH.
LINA.
MAHYRAH.
MALIAH.
MUNEERA.
PEILING.
PRIYA.
RUIYI.
SHAHILA.
SHERYN.
TENGPING.
VALERIE.
VANESSA.
XIUCHUAN.
YUWEN.

NDP'08.
CRYSTAL.
ERICA.
GEVANYA.
HEATHER.
JASMINE.
JINGFANG.
MELISSA.
PRICILLA.
REGINA.
SHINMUN.
VIVIAN.
YINGTIAN.
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2006DAISY.
BEVERLY.
HUIWEN.
INTAN.
JAMIE.
JANEEN.
NICOLE.
PEIXUAN.
SARAH.
SHUXIN.
STEFANIE.
SUMITA.
TRACY.
TRICIA.
YENLENG.
YINWEI.
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AFIQAH.
AMANI.
ANNABELLE.
ASYRAF.
ELISYA.
JAGA.
JAMIE.
JEAN.
JONAS.
KRISMINE.
LIMENG.
NABILAH.
NINA.
NURAISHAH.
SALINA.
SYAHIRAH.
TERESA.
VENUS.
YVONNE.
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AMOS.
CLARISSA.
DANIEL.
ELVIN FC.
EVAN.
FIONA.
GUANFEI.
JAIME.
JASMINE.
JOCELYN.
JIEWEN.
JOHANNA.
JONATHAN.
KAIXIN.
MENGYONG.
MUNMUN.
NIXON.
PEARLYN.
RACHEL.
ROXANNE.
SEBRINA.
SERA.
SHANE.
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XENA.
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